Hero ban gaya zero :((

Haan yeh main hoon, aur main chilla chilla ke keh raha hoon yeh baat. Beta mumbai mein ho to kabhi bhagwaan indra se panga nahin lena. aur agar lena bhi hai to remember you are not a Sunny deol or the more in fad Rajnikant, who can with all those gravity defying stunts silence all their enemies.
To keep a long story as long as possible,

Hua yeh,
ki pichle shanivaar,
nikle hum apni dhanno pe sawaar,
powai se colaba,
guitar theek karwaana hai tha pucca irada,
naa poochna kyun gaye itni door,
humein bata dete hain ishtyle maarne ka hai dastoor,
socha dhanno pe dekh humein sawaar,
bagal mein daale hamara guitar,
kya maaloom ho jaaye koi haseena hum jaanisaar,
to issi khwaab mein mashgool ja rahe the itni door,
ke beech mein bol pade meghdoot,
aur bole to aise bole,
ki reh gaye hum to bhochakke,
par aji haan herogiri chaayee thi hum par aisi,
ki bole beta date raho maidan mein,
hogi jeet tumhari hi,
to bus chalte ja rahe chalte ja rahe,
na baarish ki chinta, na girne ka darr,
chale ja chale ja rahe,
ki tabhi aaya humko dhyaan,
jeb mein hain hamari jaan,
yaani hamara pyaara sa mobile shreeman,
kahin paani se ho jaaye na iska naash,
daal diya guitar ke bag mein usko,
ki bachega paani se woh,
lekin hai re hamari kismat,
pahunch ke colaba khola jo humne bag,
paani ke saagar mein gote laga raha tha,
bus phir kya tha,
teen din,
teen din bade saahas se lada hamara mobile,
par honi to kucch aur hi thi,
ho gaya woh veergati ko praapt,
aur tab se bus issi ke dukh mein ji rahe hain,
na mili haseena, bahaya itna paseena,
aur kar diya 5500 rokre ka chuna,
chalte chalte phisal gaye so alag,
to doston mere,
agar is sadi hui kavita ke ant tak aa hi chuke ho aap,
to sunte jao yeh aakhri alaap,
chalo rehno do,
phir bataonga, abhi nahin ban raha yeh alaap.


P.s - i know this post sucks big time. My apologies for the extra headache. dispirings available on the house. :D.

Orkutting Chirkutting and all

Ok i am right now in a hurry to rush to office, but i just had to write this, after the news i read, with an agency set up by the Indian government called the Indian Computer Emergency Response Team, thinking of banning the site orkut, following attacks by some senseless people because of derogatory communities / comments on some personailities etc.

And i guess i am disgusted. I mean what the heck? this is a world of more than 5 billion people, if i am not wrong, a decent ( correct me if i am wrong) percentage of that are now logged on to the net now, and a significant chunk of that would perhaps be on orkut. Now all these millions of people have different opinion, tastes, lines of thoughts, some intellectual,some downright pervert, and so on and so forth. so? Some crazy dimwit decides hes had enough of treating of a particular personanality as a God and decides to create a community to lambast that particular community. Crazy enough, as if it should in any way affect that personalitys ways of going about? or better still another jerk creates a " we hate so and so country" community and another couple of jerks join in. So?

We get all perked up and agitated and want the site to be banned? is that logical? i mean you dont like a community, dont access the webpage, dont read the comments. Why get so hyper about it? Just because someone writes something wrong about my country, or my religion or my god, or my role model, does it mean its going to change my faith/ leaning towards. True even i would perhaps get hurt, but so what, am i supposed to vouch for a uniform civil code thingy here.

And on top it all, rather than streamlining these silly protestors our good old authorities want to ban the site. Simply because its free, it does not want to take any actions, because it respects everyones lines of thoughts / opinions ( even the perverts if i may say so). Fine enough boss.

For a lot of us out here on orkut, the site is a means of getting in touch with long lost freinds, catching up with them in this world thats fast running away like a Bullet train. we really dont bother what else goes on here, and if someone amongst us even does, to him his space, so long he/she does not expect us to follow suit. Plain and simple.

To be sure, there are more important things, such as school going children getting addicted and wasting hours on the net when they should be studying / playing etc. that is a matter for parents to deal with. and parents could perhaps be given a slight education on what the site is and what so many other sites are. In fact strangely enough no one has paid heed to the fact that the site also has a number of pornographic communities that are more harmful atleast for the young impressionable minds, than some silly we hate you-you hate us stuff. Perhaps that age old adage of Sex-Sells stops people from looking at that aspect and checking ways to stop that menace.

Anyways, its been a long rant. I sincerely hope that people start to look at the broader picture than such stupid miniscule thingies. Off late this narrowmindedness on major issues seems to have really caught on like a wildfire everywhere. would write something on that later.

Mere desh ki authorities, mature for a change pleaseeeeeee.

Of Heroes Warriors and Paladins

This ones dedicated to my own self. I thought about doing a little bit more of self praising and self patting on the back. and so took this test at this site called howtobeahero.com.

and well the results you can see on the right hand side.

Did i not tell you i am the epitome of humility. :D.

p.s. - you make the test at the site indicated. However, a working knowledge of Harry Puttar and Lord of the Rings is a must.......:D

Mujhse Dosti Karoge?

I tell you i always admire the grit and patience and you know what of my bestest freinds, for the simple fact they have me for their freind. No, no i dont mean i am the meethi churi kinds who will take a freind for a ride, but i do have some peculiar things up my sleeve, which well sometimes could just be handful. and though its just me out there, i just thought let me see what i can say about my own self.

Let me now begin.

1) I am Selfish - Period. I am one of the most selfish blokes around here. and i consider it a virtue.Everything i do, i do it for me ( a nice modification to the Bryan Adams song there aint it). No i mean it. If i ever i told you, that look this is what i did for you, and this is how you got back to me, please feel free to come over and give me a tight slap. ill take it. because i firmly believe that no one does anything for anyone else in this world, except for his own self. And so when i make some good freinds and try to maintain contacts through and through, i do it for my own self. I do it, coz those few best freinds somewhere are making my life more meaningful. Thats about it. a plain simple selfish reason.

2) I am highly demanding - So the next time i go over to her place, princess has to find me a cute bengali kudi who also is a vegetarian. Dreamer had to actually get a harley davidson and a mercedes when i met him. See it told you? i am really demanding.

3) I am highly emotional and temperamental- Yep i am. and trust this is one facet i wish to change albeit not completely. Sometimes, high on emotions makes me lose sight of the bigger picture and focus on trivial petty matters. and that is really not very endearing to you my good freinds i guess. and guess i look upon my freinds to help me change this aspect to that extent.

4) I am a patient listner - Yeah this is something i can say i am proud of. i generally am a patient listner. subject to point no 5, i can listen to you at length, whenever, whatever the time or place maybe. And even if i may not understand your point of veiw or exactly agree with it i will atleast listen to you, subject again to point no 5.

5) Advice is the only thing in this world that is free - i could be a poster boy for this "give advice always" campaign if and when initiated. like i said in point no 4, i can listen to you at lenght, but you have to listen to some of my advices again and again. Some may be rational, some a little impractical given that i am not one in the actual situation, some perhaps downright senseless, but theyll come. small, big, fat, thin, black, white, grey, all kinds of advice. philosophical, personal, professional, i give advice. They say in fact i could become a counsellor someday. trouble is, how many clients would i have?
And no i do not take it personally if you do not follow my advice. Of course you are in for it, if you continue to pursue that eye-candy i have been eying for sometime now, and which i advised you against it. Other than that, as long as you listen to me, its ok.

6) I am crazy - yep you heard it right. i am crazy. downright crazy. and so i keep doing all sorts of things. i have been nominated for lecturing on " how to give anonymous calls and scare the hell out of people"..........." how to send anonymous gifts and then act hurt when you realise, the person has not understood who it is (after all aur kaun hota princess??)"........this is just an example of some of the acceptable craziness i indulge in. the unacceptable ones? suffice to say my freinds know it.

7) I am a humble soul - Oh i am the epitome of humility. i mean i could go and be nominated for the most bakwaass blogger in the world and you will never come to know, except from my own mouth. i mean it. with me you will never feel as if you are walking alongside a walking-talking bragabond. unless of course its the 5 year olds bicycle race that i won the other day, by dressing as kiddo in chaddis and tshirt. after all mere chehre se meri umar ka pata nahin chalta. :D

Oh hell i wanted to complete ten points and now i am falling short of three. let me see, can someone help me complete them. but for that youll have to be my freind.

to kya aap mujhse dosti karoge? :). A huge bar of chocolate for the ladies who come forward, and a mug of beer for the gents. errr, could i add a good negotiator as one of the other virtues to that list. tell tell.

Yeah!!!!

This is going to be long....so bear with me. and i offer a compensation to you....a huge bar of chocolate for the ladies........and a mug of beer for the gentlemen. :)

Now ive been wanting to go for management for a long time, is something thats a given. why did it come to me? well, to be honest, when i first entered class 11th, and during one of those substitute classes where a teacher would come and not teach, coz the regular teacher was absent and someone was required to take her place. so now this teacher of ours, she was talking about the CAT exam and about the iims. and as we starry eyed kids listened to her, she told about how tough the exam was and the interveiw and all, and i was like i will give this exam. it might seem silly, but at that time i had already decided on pursuing my engineering, had started my jee preparation ( i didnt work hard enough to crack it, is a thing ill always lament, though i made it through REE), and so i thought CAT would be the next thing after engineering. And there it lay. However, there was nothing i knew really about the MBA. i just knew CAT then.

As time progressed, i managed to secure a place at roorkee, and well it was a disappointment that i was not doing electronics engineering there. and so the days passed with me studying chemical engineering, somehow not really liking it. i finished the degree with a not so great grade, got the job and all. In between, i had gone through the usual stage of deciding what to do, weighin the GRE, ( i actually took a summer project to impress a professor who could give me reccos for my MS application, and actually started studying for GRE, before leaving it :DD), then leaving it for CAT preparation in final year, and then finally deciding to forego MBA till after a couple of years of my job.

Anyways so here i was into my job, with usual gammut of working, then cribbing, lying useless at times ( i once compared myself to the peon in our site office and how we was doing more work than me) and planning for my mba. Of course by this time i had finally started understanding what management would mean. But then wherever i read, whatever i heard, the main talk was on Finance and Consulting as the two "hot" things to pursue. The million dollar dreams being dished out by the IIMs generally seemed to be about I-banking or consulting and the likes. or atleast that is what i saw/heard/read.

As for me, i was unclear about what i wanted to do. I-banking? Share markets? Consulting? Marketing? what. and i was never able to decide. i always thought i would leave it to after i actually made it to a b-school, after i had been exposed to all they had to offer to me. And when someone asked me, i had a ready answer " I have my options open".:DD

Now its been three years out of college. and past two years have been spent chasing this MBA dream, without too much of a success, except of course for GMAT. and now i have finally belatedly started the process of applying to foreign B-Schools too. and that has perhaps instigated in me this process of thinking. One thing i find good about this process,which perhaps is very different from the CAT, that the process actually makes you think about a lot of things. and some thinking never did anyone any harm. :P

And so out of this thought process has finally arisen something. Something like a spark, how long its lasts is something time will tell, but lets see. Perhaps its got to do with the industry that i am in, or whatever, but one thing i know for sure is i am not going to be driven to Finance. I somehow have a feeling i can never enjoy the job. I might do really well, but somehow it doesnt attract me. And add to that, the stories about zero personal life ( i am always very particular on that,) and i guess that is not something i want to do.

No wait, why i am first writing about what i dont want to do? why not write what i want to do? simple, because perhaps its easy to discard things you think you wont like quickly. :)).
Having said that, i have been analysing myself off late. and something tells me i am the kind of person, who likes to be in the thick of things. Who likes to take the decisions, the strategies and would like to direct the actual work that generates the value. I am the kind of person who wants to be part of the action, not advising on the action (Consulting) or handling the fruits of the action ( money). Of course thats a very very laymannish description of what a consult guy or a finance guy would do, and i am not belittling their activities, they do a lot of whole lot of important stuff, but still its not the real thing, is what i feel.

Right now i am in an engineering and construction firm, and after an initial year of execution of projects, which i admit i had not liked back then, i have been in marketing for projects. and i yearn to go back into execution. because thats the real business we do. I am not too much into generation of business as into doing of the business, is what i am beginning to feel. that is what attracts me. it might be a case of the other fruit always being sweeter ( i did detest execution in the beginning, but then i had been thrust into a project in the middle when it was only going downhill, and the activities given to me were not good enough, as i see when i compare them to what my juniors get in new projects when they join), but something tells me.

And all this thinking has made me realise, its general management and operations is what i am looking for. That is where i wish to go. A position which asks me to manage people, manage resources, handle day-day to day problems in an organisation as it strives to achieve the goal. And someday down the line, i wish to digress into the social sector.

So thats what ive been thinking of late. and that is how my search for US Bschools is progressing. for once finally i am a little clear on what i wish to do. Again i still do not have a definite career path. but where in what direction it is heading seems to be clearing. There are still a lot of uncertainities there. but still something looks to be happening.

So thats about it. And now that the long thought process is over. you can raise you heads, relax your eyes, stretch your muscles, shake your head, wonder at the accomplishment of having read such a huge piece, and go over for that bar of chocolate for the ladies and that mug of beer for the gentlemen respectively. On the house absolutely. Kiska house?? arre tera aur kya nahin to mera kya.......huh.

Chaos